I'm serious. I'm writing this cause I feel the new to self-vent and no one I know personally will be reading this.


I find myself wide awake, alone at 4:20AM. Quite the opposite of sober in many ways. None the less, I find myself being able to type perfectly fine.

I've found myself very miserable lately and I honestly have no reason to be whatsoever. I find myself self-medicating more now than I ever have any other time in my life. It's almost becoming an every...

I have to be up in 7 hours, and I am unable to sleep.

I have grind on the mind. A goal I've set myself that I'm trying to achieve by October. This goal is to have $3,000 WITHDRAWN from Pokerstars in the next two weeks. Not $3,000 profit, but enough profit that I can comfortably withdraw $3,000.

Why $3,000?

To finally get an apartment. I've been putting off the idea ever since Dad had hand surgery. He can't do a lot of the simple things around the house...