[ashmc2]

Excerpt from my blog.

One issue that I need to work on is allowing certain players to put me on tilt against them. I'll have a loose player or total donk hit some crap on me and I will spend extra time trying to get my money back. I will loosen up against that player and play all paint and any type of coordinated boards to try to get redemption. I am especially vulnerable to this vendetta-tilt if they antagonize me in the girly chat. I don't ever type anything after a beat but often another player will berate their play and then they will start bragging. My ego swells and I go into payback mode. Often I lose more money to these assholes because they either hit some crap on me or more likely I get into a fight with them with a junk kicker or marginal holding that I normally wouldn't even play. Often this perpetuates me into total tilting donkdom.

Case in point. I get in a hand with a guy that just steps onto the table 2 cycles prior with $5. In those first 2 circuits at the table he is in 3/4 of the pots, often winning with questionable kickers and gets up to $12. This dude's handle was Gotchanigga. Likely some young punk that thinks he's funny with his racist screen name. You'd think UB would oust those kinda names. I flop 2pr on a pretty innocuous board. He bets, I double his bet. He pushes the rest of his $12. I gladly call. He hits a gut-buster straight-draw. He then writes in all caps: GOTCHA NIGGA. This was very racist towards me, because I am packing a mammoth package (not only in total length but also in overall girth) with a gargantuan afro of a man-bush, so obviously there is some black somewhere in my lineage. This was a totally pathetic statement and put me on insta-tilt. I then blew the rest of that buy-in until he leaves 30 mins or so later. God was I mad. After he left I calmed down and began to play my normal game again. This definitely is a leak and is something that need to work on. My Psychology book should have a chapter on poker. That would be cool.

And no I'm not a racist, so please don't even think it. I am merely giving a true case study.