[JDMcNugent7]

I don't know exactly how to explain it, but I really don't think this is as big of a deal as some of think it is. I wasn't tilting, I wasn't playing poorly, I took a big risk and it really went as bad as it possibly could have. Obviously I got really unlucky to get colddecked like that there, but it's poker. I knew there was a chance of playing well and still losing an incredible amount of money to me, and unfortunately that is exactly what happened.

The part about losing 100k and it not affecting my life is true. I'm proud of the fact that poker affects my life a very small amount, if I'm not sitting at the computer playing, I'm not thinking about poker at all. It's not a brag like Brian suggested and it's also not me being a moron like eejit said. People just look at money differently. I think if I looked at it like losing a house like eejit does then there is seriously no way in hell I would have won nearly as much $ as I have anyway. It's both good and bad, but as soon as I sit at the table they really are just chips. I lost 100k, maybe I'll grind back from 15k, maybe I'll just quit poker for awhile and concentrate more on school. I never will re-deposit. I regret taking the shot b/c I was looking for fast money and playing for the wrong reasons, but at the same time I don't know a single 25/50+ player who hasn't done similiar things as this, alot of times worse. Maybe it's almost necessary to have this kind of gamble and disregard for money to play at those levels.