Brian,
Let's put this into perspective for you:
I am up a whopping $25 bucks on UB right now...
How do I figure that?
Well...
I deposited $1k
Got a bonus of $100 in my pending account.
I have cleared $75 of it...
My balance is at $1125.
You would think I would say, "hey! I'm up $125", right?
Wrong.
The way I look at it, is that $100 was "MINE". I just had to fulfil a task to receive it. In this case, play some breakeven poker.
Therefore I am at $1150 total. [Current balance plus $25 in pending account]
I will consider myself to have lost if I finish my session tonight at less than this amount. Why? because it is MY money.
Ask yourself this,
If you played in the PokerStars 350k guarantee on Sunday, and hit an amazing run of cards and won the whole tourney, and were given first prize of $100k. approx.
What would you do if you could not cash out via Firepay, and had to wait for a cheque?
Would you drop into the highest stake games and blow it?
I wouldn't, I wonder what you would do.
Brian.
I don't know you, nor will I ever probably meet you.
I am about to give you the single best piece of poker related advice anyone on here will ever give you. And I do mean ever.
Gamblers Anonymous
International Service Office
P.O. Box 17173, Los Angeles, CA 90017
(213) 386-8789 - Fax (213) 386-0030
Good luck Brian.
You've got some tough choices to make in the future.
I won't tell you that you should do anything... I'll just say, even without ever having met you, I hope you make the right decision...
For your wife, for your sick child, and for your self.
I really hope you make the right decision.... Whatever that may be for yourself.
