[bdawg31]

Thanks everybody. A few quick things:

1.) I feel goofy about posting when i am at a final table or getting deep - i feel like i jinx myself or i might second guess myself knowing i have people watching me (other than TP - i am used to his scrutiny). Not that i have a ton of final tables, but i will try to post more often when i do get to one.

2.) I thought about posting my recent success as a sort of 'afterward-railbird-me' type of thing - not to brag, but to show you all "Hey, one of us did pretty well - if bdawg can do it, i can do it!" type of thing.

3.) When TP mentioned that i sent an email saying i was going to try those two and call it a night - he should have said i was going to call it A MONTH! I have been getting my a$$ handed to me ever since that big WCOOP hit. And i mean at every game and at every level - take away Aruba and i have been getting crushed. I tried moving up in stakes and did well for a little while, then got hammered. Moved down, got hammered. Moved to where i usually play (5/10 and some 10/20) and got hammered. Moved to 3/6 - got hammered. Played Sit N goes - got hammered. Played MTTs - got hammered or min. cashes. A couple satellites - nothing. I think i had 3 'really good' sessions that whole time. One of those times i had a nice $1500 finish in a tourney - and lost it all the next day.

I had literally planned on playing those two satellites, figured i would lose, and then i was going to take december off - or just play real low MTTs for fun when i had the time. Then BINGO!

Moral of that long and rambling 3rd item - stay focused when things go bad. I would say 75% of that was a bad run - but i know 25% of that was me making mistakes out of frustration. And given that poker players always give themselves more credit - those numbers are probably worse.

I am also leaning towards pretty much giving up cash games - just playing them now and then just so i dont totally lose it. Not even counting these two recent wins - if i think about the money i am up and divide it between cash games and tourneys - tourneys contributed a LOT more. And i have spent a LOT less time playing tourneys than cash games. Plus, i enjoy tourneys MUCH more. That means giving up bonuses - but at some point i guess i need to let that go.

Thanks again everyone. I am no wonder-kid - trust me. I am just a grinder.