I didn't make fun of you for that whole hand washing thing you freak, so lay off
I have my table totals on the table, but somehow adding it all up, esp into a session when several tables have been opened or closed, it just too much work. But I don't like to check because it messes with my head. When I sit and play I can zen it and it can be all one big session, even if running well or taking some hits, but when I look at my balance it becomes "I can't believe this is a losing session" and I would rather just avoid that.