god hates me

[Hawt]

The $3+.30 I am in.

PokerStars Game #3307062890: Tournament #16033534, Hold'em No Limit - Level V (75/150) - 2005/12/11 - 18:42:15 (ET)
Table '16033534 257' Seat #9 is the button
Seat 1: wcpp2b (875 in chips) is sitting out
Seat 2: xTha DraGoNx (890 in chips)
Seat 3: Stud Killer (1810 in chips)
Seat 4: magsc (5681 in chips)
Seat 5: kisscurls (1805 in chips)
Seat 6: Hawtness (5425 in chips)
Seat 7: gibler123 (1844 in chips)
Seat 8: utzman (10558 in chips)
Seat 9: hotel22 (8083 in chips)
wcpp2b: posts small blind 75
xTha DraGoNx: posts big blind 150
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Hawtness [Kc Kh]
Stud Killer: calls 150
magsc: folds
kisscurls: folds
Hawtness: raises 350 to 500
gibler123: raises 1344 to 1844 and is all-in
utzman: folds
hotel22: folds
wcpp2b: folds
xTha DraGoNx: folds
Stud Killer: folds
Hawtness: calls 1344
*** FLOP *** [2s Qd 8d]
gibler123 said, "no king"
Hawtness said, "ugh nh"
*** TURN *** [2s Qd 8d] [Qs]
gibler123 said, "YES"
*** RIVER *** [2s Qd 8d Qs] [6h]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Hawtness: shows [Kc Kh] (two pair, Kings and Queens)
gibler123: shows [Ad As] (two pair, Aces and Queens)
gibler123 collected 4063 from pot

Literally 10 SECONDS LATER in the $2+.20 that just started.

PokerStars Game #3307071223: Tournament #16033540, Hold'em No Limit - Level I (10/20) - 2005/12/11 - 18:43:04 (ET)
Table '16033540 158' Seat #8 is the button
Seat 1: MagicWoman (1350 in chips)
Seat 2: 762NATO (1450 in chips)
Seat 3: I vQc I (2520 in chips)
Seat 4: laziebones (1350 in chips)
Seat 5: ayekappy (1390 in chips)
Seat 6: rocky dem (3060 in chips)
Seat 7: skippy5 (1590 in chips)
Seat 8: Hawtness (1550 in chips)
Seat 9: 4Sammidog (1440 in chips)
4Sammidog: posts small blind 10
MagicWoman: posts big blind 20
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Hawtness [Kc Kd]
762NATO: folds
I vQc I: raises 80 to 100
laziebones: folds
ayekappy: raises 1290 to 1390 and is all-in
rocky dem: folds
skippy5: folds
Hawtness: raises 160 to 1550 and is all-in
4Sammidog: folds
MagicWoman: folds
I vQc I: folds
*** FLOP *** [8h 5h 4s]
*** TURN *** [8h 5h 4s] [9s]
*** RIVER *** [8h 5h 4s 9s] [Jc]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
ayekappy: shows [As Ah] (a pair of Aces)
Hawtness: shows [Kc Kd] (a pair of Kings)
ayekappy collected 2910 from pot
Hawtness said, "figures"

At least I am still in the $3+.30... but I am like 1k below average now, and just damn... back to back on two different tables. My mentality is pretty much shattered now.

Edit: I know these aren't bad beats because I got my money in as the underdog, but it is still pretty rough.