Frustration...

[melioris]

I hear you TP, and I think my situation is relevant to yours. I wrote up a big long thing and was going to post a new thread, but I will paraphrase here instead.

A couple of days after this , something came up and the family needed some money. At the time it made sense to pull the money from my online bankroll, so I pulled everything out (mid 4 figures). I thought about rebuilding with May's RB payment, and dicked around with that idea for a couple of days. But the joy was gone (which made it an easy decision to pull the BR in the first place), it was all about the money and that is when I knew it was time to move on. How? Well, for a lot of reasons. First, and most important, is time. Life is short and getting shorter everyday. There are a lot of things I want to do that I am not getting done right now. Each time I fire up windows and play poker, I am not doing those things. Then there is the fact I am not that good. Then there is the fact that my dayjobs (lab and kids) are taking up more and more time and I can't really let poker infringe on either. The list goes on and on….

Poker has been good for me and I have learned a lot about myself and human nature through online poker, but if I think about it, most of the things in my life that bring me happiness are not currently limited by money. So why should I spend my time pursuing money (poker) when the only correlation that money (and the pursuit of it) may have with my happiness is negative? It doesn’t add up. So with the chump change I still have online I mess around with HU SNGs every now and again and since I am not playing with proper BR management I will burn through that and be done for a while.

As I get older it becomes more and more clear to me that I am incredibly lucky to be able to, more or less, choose how I spend my time. Look around the world, not a lot of people came say that. So I try not to do anything that I do not truly enjoy. I still hack away at home games and such, and maybe we will need the money or I will re-discover my joy of online poker, but until then it isn't in me anymore.