How to handle the bad ole days...

[ChipFish]

You sound like you are a beginner LightFungus. Please don't be offended if you are not, just sounds like you are... Nothing wrong with that, we all were at one point.... Here's a little advise that should work for you if you are a beginner.
Didn't realize you had a bonus to earn at Party.
1. Earn it. play the omaha HL until you earn it.
Do not get involved in hands unless you have a "Great" starting hand.
2. withdraw from Party.

3. Deposit at Ultimate Bet or JetSetPoker.
Ignore the bonus offered to you.
4. Start Playing the cheapest Sit-N-Go tournaments you can find.
At Ultimate Bet They have $1+.10 SitnGos.
This is a very cheap way to gain experience
Same goes for Jetset, I think they still have Very cheap multi table tournaments.... And they also have a freeroll like every 30 minutes or so....
These are very cheap ways to get experience....
5. Play these "cheapies" for quite a few months... you are looking for experience, not profit at this stage....
6. When you feel you are ready save $500 and make another deposit at Party when they have a reload bonus available. Use this as your bankroll and protect it at all costs.